Tuesday, 14 August 2012

Bashing the Headmistress?

Assalamualaikum.

Today I came accross some tweets about my school's headmistress. They were mean..

I do get why not many people like her. But what makes you guys sick are based on her actions. Why can't you just hate that? Why hate the person?

Even if you do hate a person, there is no need in talking mean things about them behind their backs. They have feelings too. Their feelings can trigger anytime, just like yours. Oh yeah, we're all human.

Look, we all make mistakes. If someone talked bad about you, surely you'd explode.

Anyhow, she is the headmistress of your school. She should be respected. If you do not like her ways, pray for the better of her. At least both parties will get the benifits.

Plus, disrespect to the headmistress could cause your bad grades or what so ever. Even if you respect your class/subject teachers, but you do not respect the one above them (in this case, your headmaster/mistress), you still won't excell. Trust me, life is all about balance.

With this, I pray the best for everyone.

14.8.2012

Assalamualaikum.

Yes, I know I am full of sins and I am a rolling tape of mistakes. Those are what makes me human.

Another thing that makes me human is that I have feelings. Okay yes, I do notice I tend to regret what I do only after doing something wrong. I don't think through because I assume too much. I understand that is something about me I must change. However in the meanwhile, I admit I will still be that stupid old self. Why? Because change takes time. You know that.

I may haved been labelled as 'full of excuses' that sometimes it's hard to believe me. But why can't you guys, anyone, have the courtesy to hear me out first? It's like, you asked for an explanation you never planned on listening. Even if I were to lie, it still hurts when I'm not being heard. When I'm being ignored. It hurts everyone.

What I do and who I am may be unbelieveable. But most of the time I speak the truth. I am genuine to what I say. I try not to lie, sometimes things happen and I am forced to. Even then, it hurts me, myself, telling them.

Please, stop taking me as a robot. I have feelings too. I try to make it up to everyone when I have done something wrong but they're all.. Simply unappreciated.


Tuesday, 7 August 2012

Is, seriously I need to talk to you. WHERE ARE YOU?! Why aren't you ever online when I need you? :< I wish you could have your phone back D:

I miss you & I'm having a bad time right now. Please... Where are you? :(

7.8.2012

Assalamualaikum.

Dalam novel Andai Itu Takdirnya, ada satu part yang Syed Azreel ber-ehem ehem dengan Sharifah Emili depan Aliya, isteri Syed Azreel. Masa tu depa nak cerai dah, tapi dah jadi cerai sebab adalah benda benda yang jadi dalam cerita tu.

Saya pernah jelaskan dekat Is macam mana saya rasa pasal babak tu, & dia pun ada janji sesuatu. Agaknya dia dah lupa.

Sebenarnya saya tak kisah sangat pasal apa yang saya rasa tu. Jealous tu perkara biasa. Yang sedihnya cuma sebab dia lupa janji dia..

p/s: Aina kata jangan percaya orang bulat bulat, nanti lagi senang depa nak ambil kesempatan. Okies nana :*

Jazakallah Khayran.

Monday, 6 August 2012

6.8.2012

Assalamualaikum.

I am sad. Honestly, I feel very sad. I know I shouldn't talk about it but.. I need to let this out.

Earlier in our relationship, Is made a promise.
He is very honest with me, alhamdulillah. Later on, he told me he almost broke his promise but he changed his mind immediately when he thought of me.

But he's failed to keep that promise a few months later. Now he's broken it again.

I'm.. Very disappointed. Very.

I know, I'm not the victim in every situation, but disappointment is disappointment. Especially when I asked if he thought of me when he was about to do it. He answered 'yes'.

It's impossible for me not to forgive him. But if I keep on acting like every one of his mistakes is okay, when will he stop? When will he know it's not okay?

This is not the only promise he's broken. I know, I've broken some too but.. This is bigger, honestly. I just want the best for him, you know? I know, I might come of as bossy or controlling but.. I just want the best for him :(

The thing is, 4 months ago, he never broke promises. Never. He keeps his words. Even the little ones. I don't understand.. I hate to say it, but does he love me less now?

However the condition is, I love him - with all my heart, with or without mistakes. But I just wish he'd leave this particular habit behind because this is not just a mistake. It's heart-breaking.

Friday, 8 June 2012

Oh Jambori!

I drafted this almost a year ago. I feel like its a waste not to share, even though I didn't write everything. I don't know how to move on from where I stopped, so I think I'll post it like how I left it.
Here it goes.

18th November 2011.
Kita semua berkumpul dekat VI. Kita semua tu aku, Asyraf, Dini, Syu, Wan, Ezat, Ridwan, Afiq, Ridzwan and Cikgu Amani. Kitorang satu bas dengan VI and satu lagi sekolah ni. Patutnya kumpul situ pukul 8pm. Aku lah, bersemangat betul. Wan kata nak try bukak khemah segala, dia tanya aku nak buat pukul berapa. Aku cakap lah 9pm, kumpul pukul 8pm. Last last aku dengan Asyraf yang datang pukul 10pm. Hahaha, teruk betul. Kitorang lambat pun sebab kemas beg haa. So sampai sana, ada taklimat around 10.30pm and jari Syu tersepit pintu so berdarah ._. Then bas sampai around 11.45pm. Gerak at 12am.

19th November 2011.
Cikgu Amani tak ikut kitorang naik bas. Ada sorang lagi cikgu, nama dia Madam Koh Norlyana. Anak dia naik bas dengan kitorang, nama dia Dinie. Dia ada sorang kawan nama Iqbal.

Dalam bas aku duduk dengan Asyraf since dia adik aku. Aku tak duduk dengan Syu or Dini sebab agak terpinggir. Depa form 1 so yeah. Aku sorang form 2 perempuan. Then dekat Petronas mana entah, bas berhenti kejap. Kitorang kena turun ambil baju WP Kuala Lumpur. Besaq gilaaa, warna biru gelap, long sleeve. Aku saiz S macam dapat saiz M. Tapi takpa lah. Lepas ambil baju, aku naik bas, tutup muka dengan sweater then tidur. Aku make sure kitab Yaasin ada dengan aku sebab nanti lalu highway Karak. LOL.

Sedar sedar, dah pukul 5.30am. Bas stop dekat masjid. Masa tu dah sampai dah Terengganu (: Di sebabkan aku ABC, Dini dengan Syu pergi dengan Madam and tinggalkan aku dengan bebudak non-muslim dalam bas. Aku pun melukis lah, haa. Bila depa dah naik, aku tidur balik :B

Aku bangun balik around 8.15am. 8.30am bas stop lagi, dekat Mydin Kota Terengganu. Kita breakfast kat situ. Aku dah bawak bekal, mihun kisar Mama. And aku malas nak pecah duit, so aku takbeli air. Ingatkan nak share air dengan siapa siapa, tapi takda jadi camtu pulak.

Sampai tempat camp at 9.45am. Depan tempat tu ada pantai :D WPKL punya campsite punya lah jauh -_- Hari  panas pulak tuu. So lepas dah set khemah segala, ada perhimpunan. 11.30am camtu. Diorang bahagikan kita, jadi 10 patrol. Aku patrol 2. Aku yang tak minum air dari malam semalam tiba tiba rasa lemah. Pening gitu, tak larat. So aku excuse kan diri aku and pergi duduk bawah khemah. Kakak abang situ tanya, "Dik, tak makan ke pagi tadi?" Pastu ada sorang abang ni, nama dia Abang Azri, dia kata "Eh dia makan lah. Banyak gila. Tak pandang kiri kanan pun. Aku nampak, serious weh!" -__- K malu.

Mula mula kitorang plan nak tidur dalam satu khemah kecil je, sebab kita tiga orang je. Muatlah. Tiba tiba Madam bagi kitorang khemah besar dia yang extra, so khemah kecil tu kitorang guna untuk simpan barang. Laki yang tolong set up kan khemah :B Iqbal, Dinie. Then dia punya alas untuk hujan pulak ada another group of boys. Aku tak ingat sangat siapa, tapi aku ingat sorang tu je. Muka dia macam muka dua orang yang aku kenal ni, so aku tertanya tanya lah nama dia apa.

Masa lunch apahal entah aku rajin sangat, aku pergi tolong orang kat dapur. Aku ambil duty cedok nasi. Kat situ aku kenal Abang Haqqim. Orang in charge memasak kat situ, dia suruh kitorang panggil dia Mama.

Hari ni kita takda aktiviti apa. So lepak dekat campsite sementara tunggu Cikgu Amani. Dia datang dengan Shahril nanti. Tiba tiba petang tu Ezat call aku.

Ezat: Weh, mana kau?
Aku: Aku kat campsite lah. Pahal?
Ezat: Kitorang semua kat pantai ni.
Aku: Pantai? Ada pantai? Mana?
K masa tu aku taktahu ada pantai lagi :B
Ezat: Yelah, pantai. Takkan kau tak sedar kot, ada kat depan ni je. Datang ah sini. Semua ada.
Aku: Semua? Semua tu siapa?
Ezat: Aku, Wan, adik kau, Afiq, haa semua lah.
Aku: Laaah, aku nak gi! Asal kau tak ajak aku tadi? Aku taktahu kat mana lah.
Ezat: Aku malas.
Aku: Habisu kau nak aku buat apa?
Ezat: Datang ah sini.
Aku: Tapi aku taktahu mana lah bang.
Ezat: Kau datang je.
Aku: Weh, betul betul lah.
Ezat: Takpa lah, kitorang nak balik dah pun. Bye.

-_-


Lepastu, aku tengok yang aku ada misscall dari Shahril. Sebab aku kedekut creds, aku text dia suruh call balik. Bila dia call, aku dengar suara perempuan ._. Rupanya Cikgu. Hahaha. Dia kata dia dah sampai, dia nak tahu mana nak daftar. Aku cakap lah aku taktahu, sebab tadi kitorang takda pergi mana mana untuk daftar. Then cikgu tanya mana campsite, aku bagitahu then tiba tiba dia sampai ._. Bila dia sampai, bebudak BB lain pun sampai. Depa mintak aku tuliskan nama depa kat tag nama diorang sebab aku tuliskan untuk Syu dengan Dini.

Malam tu ada Malam Kebudayaan. Best. Sebenarnya aku tak tengok pun persembahan diorang. Dia best sebab ada Pramuka kat belakang dewan menari nari. Semua orang join, termasuk aku. Haha. Line dance gitu, seragam gila <:

Malam tu balik dari Malam Kebudayaan, kitorang semua kena kutip sampah. Dah siap, bebudak BB semua duduk satu tempat. I mean, memang semua orang duduk satu tempat tapi kitorang cam duduk in a group. Semua mengantuk, penat. Kirtorang main teka teki, tapi mamai. Hahaha serious lawak.Then bebudak seolah lain pun join. Haha meriah.

Bila pemimpin and Kelana dah balik ke campsite, ada perhimpunan jap. Depa nak bagi buku aktiviti and bahagikan kita ikut kumpulan warna. Aku kumpulan merah, sama dengan Wan, Shahril, Iqbal, Ridwan, Anis, Zoe, and three other guys from VI yang aku takpernah tau nama :B

Lepas perhimpunan, kita semua balik ke khemah. Aku ada beli satu bag Jamboree yang kebetulan agak kalis air, so aku letak segala barang yang nak pakai esok pagi untuk letak dalam khemah tidur so that tak tercari cari esok. Sebab esok kena pakai uniform lengkap, complicated kan? Haa. Lepas aku masukkan barang dalam bag, Madam takbagi aku tutup pintu khemah sebab dia nak letak barang dia. Kita share. So aku masuk lah dalam khemah tidur. Lepas aku masuk, Dini and Syu pulak masuk. Then terus hujan lebat gila. Khemah tu terus bocor. BOCOR GILA. Banjir. Then Ezat text aku.

Ezat: We, kau ok x
Aku:  Tak, khemah bocor gila. Aku taktahu nak buat apa, nak tidur mana.

Tiba tiba dia call.

Ezat: Weh, Wan datang nak tolong. Cepat keluar khemah. Raincoat kau ada?
Aku: Ada tapi dalam khemah satu lagi. Tu pun aku taktahu mana.
Ezat: Ha takpa, cepat pergi. Bye.

Kitorang bertiga still clueless. Kita cuba call Madam, tapi Madam merepek kitorang semua takpaham. Last last aku keluar je macam tu, tak berbaju hujan, berkaki ayam. Aku keluar keluar je, ada cikgu. Aku pun cakap lah degan cikgu, dia suruh check khemah barang. Khemah tu pun bocor! Sebab zip bawah tak tutup. Madam lah kot -_- Cikgu tadi bagi plastic bag suruh isi barang semua. Aku panggil Dini dengan Syu. Diorang pack barang dari dalam, aku pack yang dekat dengan pintu khemah tu, sambil cuba cari plastic bag lain.

Tiba tiba cikgu bagi raincoat kat aku. "Ada budak lelaki bagi." Wan. Alhamdulillah gila lah masa tu. So lepas kemas semua barang, hujan reda sikit. Kitorang bertiga pergi jumpa cikgu, sebab cikgu panggil orang yang khemah bocor. Last last aku tidur dengan cikgu. Kan mujur aku dah pack barang awal awal? (:

Aku masuk je dalam khemah cikgu, aku dapat text dari Wan. "Dik, ok ke? /-:". Aku balas lah, "Mila okay je. Dah jumpa tempat tidur (: Thanks."


20th November 2011.
Aku bangun at 5.30am. Aku pakai terus baju Pengakap and pergi tempat himpun. Sampai je sana, hujan, so takdapat buat Istiadat Pagi and benda bendera tu. So kena terus siap untuk aktiviti and pergi makan breakfast.

Kumpulan aku dapat aktiviti lawatan pagi ni, so aku takpayah tukar baju. Pakai baju Pengakap je. By 8.30am kitorang dah siap. Lawatan ada 3 choices, pergi Masjid Terapung, Muzium Islam, and Menjelajah Bandar Kota Terengganu (actually aku main taram je nama nama lawatan ni). Zoe punya lah excited, dia dok tanya aku dengan Anis,

Zoe: If we could choose, which lawatan do you want to go to?
Aku: I'm not sure, wait, there are choices?
Zoe: Yeah, look. *Points at her buku aktiviti.* I want to go to the museum. You guys?
Anis: Kalau aku, aku nak pergi Masjid. Takpun Tamadun Islam tu. Kau?
Aku: Sama lah, tapi I'm interested in yang Menjelajah Kota Terengganu tu jugak.
Anis: Tengok nasib kita lah.








Ada dua orang iring kita, Madam dengan Mummy. Sebenarnya nama dia Geraldine, and kitorang taktahu nak panggil dia apa. Tiba tiba Shahril dok panggil dia Mummy, kita semua pun ikutlah :p

Asalnya kitorang kena pecah into three groups, but Madam taknak susah, dia buat kitorang semua pergi yang Menjelajah Kota Terengganu tu. Aku dah excited, haha. Then lepas ambil button lawatan, kitorang semua pakai dekat scarf. Kitorang naik bas number 33. Kat situ ada King Scout yang sangatlah friendly, nama dia Nizar.

Kitorang dapat sekeping kertas. Situ dia ada bagi soalan. Apa nama bank yang dekat dengan bangunan apatah. Senang? Oh tidak. BANYAK GILA BANK KAT SITU TAHU TAK ._. Aku rasa semua bank dalam Malaysia punya branch kat situ. Then kitorang kena cari Stesen Bas apatah. Hehe. Bila dah jumpa, we ended up in Pasar Payang. Kena cari how old the building is. Wan pergi masuk pejabat tu and got the answer. Perjalanan nak pergi pejabat tu... Mak aih, punyalah jauh.

Apabila kami sudah selesai, kami membut kata putus untuk makan. Nak cari food court tu pun jauh ._. Nasib bukan kita yang bayar makanan semua ^^V Abang Nizar yang baik itu belanja. Mueheh.

Tuesday, 22 May 2012

I'm 15 already lol

This was drafted a while ago and I thought I'd post it now.


Assalamualaikum.

Lol actually I turned fifteen almost a month ago, but because I haven't updated much I think I shall start there.

Honestly I've got one of the best birthday present ever this time!!
So actually I've had a crush on  Is for a while. Looool it was obvious, everyone pointed it out though I didn't even admit it to myself. Then a few days ago he told me he liked me as well, and I told him I did too because I promised. I was super happy hahahahaha ☺v


Then on my birthday, he asked me to be his girlfriend. Ayat power bro! Hahahahahahahahahahahahah so yeah 


So yeah hahahahahahaha I'm a happy girl :B 


Assalamualaikum 

22.3.2012

Assalamualaikum.


Yes, it has been a while. A long while. Now I shall update on what I have missed out :)


Today, Is & I are 51 days. He asked on my birthday  Huehehe love him to bits :*


Going to another jamboree soon. Jambori Himpunan Jutaan Belia @ Putrajaya. Going on Tuesday. So these few days have been hectic!


I think I'll try updating frequently. It's possible because Mama & Ayah have already installed Unifi :)


OH btw, I woke up at 2.46am. I couldn't sleep since :( I'm so tired!


That's it for now. Assalamualaikum 

Monday, 27 February 2012

I'm in Form 3?

Assalamualaikum. Ollo!

It's been a while, eh? I'm in form 3 now :) Budak besar dah, PMR tahun ni :-s

Fazlin dah pindah balik SMKTTDI. My time is now balanced between BB and TTDI. Thanks to tuition :)

And aku?
Kelas 3 Maju. Aku penolong kelas, Naib Pengerusi Pengakap Muda, Setiausaha Pengakap luar and AJK Form 3 PRS. Aku makin active Pengakap. Cuma sambutan Hari Pengasas haritu aku tak pergi >:

Sekarang aku jual cookies melalui Johar, tak lama lagi jual kat sekolah :D

Aku tak tahu nak tulis apa lagi. Lol.

Selamat Malam, assalamualaikum x

Wonder Cookies

Ingredients

  • 2 cups all-purpose flour
  • 1/2 teaspoon baking soda
  • 1/2 teaspoon salt
  • 3/4 cup unsalted butter, melted
  • 1 cup packed brown sugar
  • 1/2 cup white sugar
  • 1 tablespoon vanilla extract
  • 1 egg
  • 1 egg yolk
  • 2 cups semisweet chocolate chip (best is Hershey's)
Instructions
  1. Preheat oven the 325 degrees F (165 degrees C). Grease cookie sheets or line parchment paper.
  2. Sift together the flour, baking soda and salt; set aside.
  3. In a medium bowl, cream together the melted butter, brown sugar and white sugar until well blended. Beat in the vanilla, egg, and egg yolk until light and creamy. Mix in the sifted ingredients until just blended. Stir in the chocolate chips by hand using a wooden spoon. Drop cookies dough 1/4 cup at a time onto the prepared cookie sheets (I use ice-cream scoopers). Cookies should be about 3 inches apart.
  4. Bake for 15 to 17 minutes in the preheated oven, or until the edges are lightly toasted. Cool on baking sheets for a few minutes before transferring to wire racks to cool completely.
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