Think About Moving.

Moving where? Bangsar / Kelantan.

1. MOVING TO BANGSAR

Mama ada terfikir nak pindah rumah ke Bangsar, and I think its not a bad idea, since aku and Asyraf pun sekolah kat Bangsar. Next year Adam pun join. But Ayah takbagi, he wants to stay in Taman Tun. So Mama pun kata lah kat dia, "If you don't want move, its fine with me. I'll take one of the maids and find a house in Bangsar. I'll stay with yang sekolah kat sana. You can stay here with Johar."

Aku terus menangis! The thought of Ayah and Mama separating is just so.. heartbreaking. I know I'm overreacting, but I think its healthy to overreact in this case. I love them too much for them to be separated in any way at all. I don't mind the idea, but just.. Mama and Ayah living away is like.. ):

Honestly, I've been scared. I've always been. I'm scared that Mama and Ayah would be separated, and our family would fall apart. I don't want that to happen, not ever!

Earlier this year, I came to realize why Ammar is here. Why he's suddenly born after 7 years of Johar being bongsu. I don't know if this really is the reason, but this is how I see it: Ammar came when our family was just about to go distant. Ayah was starting to work in the night and Mama in the day. They absolutely had no time for each other. And Ammar.. He just bonds us together. If it weren't for him, I think the Nadim family would have gone down by now.

And I've been scared ever since. What if either Mama or Ayah goes? As in, dies? Or gets divorce? They're not young, Ayah is 5 years to being 60 and Mama is turning 50 this year (though she doesn't admit it). Nadhil's parents got divorce at 50 years old with 6 kids. Aina's got divorced at 20+ with two kids. Nothing is impossible. And nothing scares me.

I hope you get the point by now.

2. MOVING TO KELANTAN

This was entirely Sue's idea at first - pindah sekolah at Kelantan, SMK Dato' Ahmad Maher. I wasn't on with it, but then I got interested. I asked Mama and Ayah and they half-heartedly said , "Tengok result finals dulu". So yeah. At first I was pretty excited about it, now I'm reconsidering.

Btw, I'm at SK1 now. They're having Karnival Koko Antarabangsa, and this year not only are the Indonesians are involved, but dari Thailand and China jugak! :B And I'm a petugas as usual. Haha.

That is all. Baibai x