Bad dream ):

The title makes me sound like a sensitive mommy's kid. I guess you could say that.

My dream started with the whole family - Mama, Ayah, Asyraf, Adam, Johar, Ammar and I - along with my friend  - lets call her 'Nur' - going shopping. We separated into two groups. I was with Nur, Ammar, and Adam.

We went to this shop - it looked sort of like a grocery store. I wanted to get something from the other side we were at, so I went alone. I took the item, and walked back to... I didn't walk back to where they were. I was sure I didn't miss a turn or whatever, but it seemed like I couldn't get anywhere.

I kept walking, crying at the same time. I tried to find an exit, at least, so I could call any of them - no line, I guess. I searched until I found and exit. I looked back, it was as if I just came out of a boutique.

I headed straight, keeping my head down. I didn't know where I was until I thought the lights got brighter, and  I looked up - I was in MPH Bookstore. I was so relieved when I see Nur. She didn't look panicked or anything, she was starring at the magazine shelves. I called out to her, and her expression changed like, serta-merta.

"Apahal kau baru nak datang? Aku cari kau merata-rata k? Adam dengan Ammar dah menghilang ke mana entah. Sekarang, kau tolong aku cari diorang ye," she said, almost screaming. Then she stormed off, heading to the escalator, expecting me to hurry after her.

Her tracks stopped when I saw Adam just arriving at the escalator. She told me to hurry up and see something. I couldn't see anything, and being the curious me, I did a little jog over there. And then I saw it.

Red stuff all over the floor - blood. I was sure. A small kid lying on the floor, all curled up, looking pale and bruised. I felt a mini-heart attack.

Ammar was somehow beaten up.

Then to large round men - one wearing a green t-shirt, the other wearing a yellow one - got up and ran away. They were bleeding and bruised too.

I starred at Ammar, not knowing what to do. Then I said to myself, "Hospital lah, bodoh." So, I picked him up and .... Idk what happened next.

The next thing I remember is that -
Ammar was better. We were in a black jeep. It was night. No one was talking to me, like if I hadn't got lost, nothing would've happened to Ammar.

I had him in my arms. He was finally awake, and I asked him, "Ammar, apa jadi?"

He starred at me and answered, "Ammar tengah dengan kakak, Adam dengan kawan kakak kat kedai. Tiba-tiba, kakak hilang, pastu kawan kakak, pastu Adam. Ammar takut, Ammar pergi cari kakak. Ammar jerit 'Kakak! Kakak!' tapi kakak tak dengar. Ammar pusing-pusing tapi tak jumpa siapa-siapa. Pastu Ammar pergi kat tangga. Tiba-tiba ada orang sama besar dengan ayah datang. Dia tumbuk semua orang. Dia monster. Ammar nak panggil Ultraman tapi tak sempat. Dia pukul Ammar, kakak! Naughty. Pastu Ammar sakit kat semua-semua, Ammar takleh bangun. Pastu Ammar tidur, Ammar bangun kat tempat doktor."

I woke up.

He was sleeping next to me at the time. He was wearing the same clothes as he was in the dream, so I got up and checked if he was okay. He was.

I realized maybe this dream came because I got mad with Ammar cause he interrupted me watching tv and didn't want me to help to my specs away. 'He's only three, Kamila!'

Then, I heard azan maghrib. Buka puasa!

Asyraf and Johar were arguing about Char Kuey.
"Asyraf ni tamak lah! Takyah lah ambik semua!"
"Johar pun sama je! Asyraf baru ambik tiga, mana cukup?"
Blablabla.

It got on my nerves everytime they fought about food, but this was my first time snapping about it.

"Woi, shut up lah. Tau tak, you shouldn't be arguing about this? It's a small matter. At least dapat gak kan makan? Tak bersyukur langsung." Then I announced my dream.

"...Then Kamila check Ammar. He was okay. So that's something worth fighting about! Not food. Patutnya bersyukur, ada makanan and adik's okay. Ni tak, kalau boleh pasal curi 10 sen pun korang nak berperang, nak saman, nak gaduh sampai masuk court!"

I didn't realize I was crying until Mama said, "Dah, dah le tu. It was only a dream. Nangis depan makanan pun tak baik tau."

"Oh, yes. Tau tau. Tu je nak cakap."

After a short awkward silence, Ayah said, "Padan muka kena ceramah dengan Kamila."