Haha, ni first time aku menjejak kaki serta menghirup udara segar Bandar Sunway. Biarlah aku nak jadi lame sekali-sekala.
Basah tu basah, tapi bukan sebab pergi WetWorld. Sebab amusement park dia pun ada rides yg basah. Bak kata Ayah, next cuti baru main air (:
Rides dia agak lame -__- tapi sebab aku berkepit dengan family, best la jadinya.
Actually, kitorang plan nak gi WetWorld, but sampai-sampai tempat tu, hujan. Kuajo.
Mama and Asyraf naik dua rides je, trauma katanya. Basah sikit pun dah taknak main. Ish.
Aku, Adam and Johar basah gila :3 hihihi.
Okay, tu je. Sebab lagu Rhythm of Love tengah main kat Hitz.fm, aku takleh concentrate nak tulis. Wajib karaoke ini lagu!
x
Wednesday, 31 August 2011
Monday, 29 August 2011
Kepada Wonderboy.
Assalamualaikum, Salam Sejahtera dan Salam Satu Malaysia. Saya, Siti Diana Kamila, ingin mengucapkan Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri Maaf Zahir dan Batin.
Wonderboy yg amat dirindui dan disayangi,
Harap maklum. x
Wonderboy yg amat dirindui dan disayangi,
- Kamila minta maaf sebab banyak buat sakit hati kat Wonderboy.
- Kamila minta maaf sebab dah tak buat comic Wonderboy, Kamila takde idea. Sorry.
- Kamila minta maaf sebab Kamila rapat dengan lelaki lain, and Kamila layan dorang sama hyper dengan layan Wonderboy. Sesungguhnya time-time tu Kamila tak lupa pun dekat Wonderboy.
- Kamila minta maaf sebab Kamila bukannya "girlfriend" yang sempurna. Tapi Kamila tetap bersyukur (:
- Kamila minta maaf sebab Kamila suka sangat menangis.
- Kamila minta maaf sebab banyak susahkan Wonderboy.
- Kamila minta maaf sebab takde dengan Wonderboy raya tahun ni.
Harap maklum. x
Hi.
Rindu Wonderboy & Aina.
p/s: Kalau gambar kat atas tu tak gerak, silalah click gambar tersebut. Sekian.
Okay, bye x
p/s: Kalau gambar kat atas tu tak gerak, silalah click gambar tersebut. Sekian.
Tadi aku gi kedai makan!
Pergi je, tak buat apa-apa pun.
Aku dengar cerita esok Raya? Maksudnya, Merdeka pun dah dekat la ye? Kalau macam tu, birthday Ayah pun nak dekat la kan?
Birthday Ayah.
Birthday Ayah.
Birthday Ayah.
Birthday Ayah 31 Ogos lah.
Haaaaa, aku takde buat apa-apa pun lagi ):
Maybe sempena raya ni aku boleh bagi dia duit raya je kot :3 10 sen pun boleehhh.
Tapi kan biasa-biasanye, aku bagi dia kad. Takpun belikan coklat. Disebabkan Puasa dekat sangat dengan birthday dia, obviously aku tengah pokai kalau nak beli apa-apa sekarang. Sebab, masa bulan Ramadhan aku tak dapat allowance.
Ahh, sekadar big hug dengan nyanyi Happy Birthday pun cukup kan? (:
Harap-haraplah.
Sekian, Salam Satu Malaysia.
x
Aku dengar cerita esok Raya? Maksudnya, Merdeka pun dah dekat la ye? Kalau macam tu, birthday Ayah pun nak dekat la kan?
Birthday Ayah.
Birthday Ayah.
Birthday Ayah.
Birthday Ayah 31 Ogos lah.
Haaaaa, aku takde buat apa-apa pun lagi ):
Maybe sempena raya ni aku boleh bagi dia duit raya je kot :3 10 sen pun boleehhh.
Tapi kan biasa-biasanye, aku bagi dia kad. Takpun belikan coklat. Disebabkan Puasa dekat sangat dengan birthday dia, obviously aku tengah pokai kalau nak beli apa-apa sekarang. Sebab, masa bulan Ramadhan aku tak dapat allowance.
Ahh, sekadar big hug dengan nyanyi Happy Birthday pun cukup kan? (:
Harap-haraplah.
Sekian, Salam Satu Malaysia.
x
Sunday, 28 August 2011
hAi k0wUnK sMuEwWwWzZzZz ! ! ! . .
Ew. (re: Title)
Malam ni aku tidur rumah tok. And aku terlupa bawak diary. Damn.
So, nampaknya aku kena tulis tulis kat sini la, ye? (:
Current activity: Tengah tunggu application Bowling Buddies load. Lama gila -.- Tak silap aku dah 5 minit dia kata "Preparing bowling shoes. Get ready!". Amboiiii, besaq sangat ke kaki aku ni sampai lama sangat kau nak cari saiz kasut untuk aku?
Oh oh, semalam aku datang sini gak. Kononnya nak tolong bersihkan lantai luar. Last-last main air dengan Ammar :D Aku buat kerja pun pakai baju swimming. Haha, mana tak timbul nafsu kanak-kanak aku? :B
Tadi pulak, aku sambung kerja aku. Aku pi lap tingkap and segala-gala benda yg ada kaca. Sepatutnya, Adam tolong aku tapi dengan alasan dia pendek, dia give up. Amboii Adam, kau ingatkan kenapa aku carikan tangga untuk kau? -__- Kuajo.
Oh yeaaah, semalam tangan aku kena jarum! Sakit gilaaaa, walaupun tak berdarah. Tapi sampai sekarang aku still rasa pedih. *ah, mengada la kau.
Okbai. x
Malam ni aku tidur rumah tok. And aku terlupa bawak diary. Damn.
So, nampaknya aku kena tulis tulis kat sini la, ye? (:
Current activity: Tengah tunggu application Bowling Buddies load. Lama gila -.- Tak silap aku dah 5 minit dia kata "Preparing bowling shoes. Get ready!". Amboiiii, besaq sangat ke kaki aku ni sampai lama sangat kau nak cari saiz kasut untuk aku?
Oh oh, semalam aku datang sini gak. Kononnya nak tolong bersihkan lantai luar. Last-last main air dengan Ammar :D Aku buat kerja pun pakai baju swimming. Haha, mana tak timbul nafsu kanak-kanak aku? :B
Tadi pulak, aku sambung kerja aku. Aku pi lap tingkap and segala-gala benda yg ada kaca. Sepatutnya, Adam tolong aku tapi dengan alasan dia pendek, dia give up. Amboii Adam, kau ingatkan kenapa aku carikan tangga untuk kau? -__- Kuajo.
Oh yeaaah, semalam tangan aku kena jarum! Sakit gilaaaa, walaupun tak berdarah. Tapi sampai sekarang aku still rasa pedih. *ah, mengada la kau.
Okbai. x
Friday, 26 August 2011
Dah 27th Ramadhan dah.
Terasa macam baru je lepas bangun sahur untuk hari pertama puasa. Sayang betul aku nak tinggalkan Ramadhan tahun ni. Tahun lepas-lepas pun.
Kepada siapa-siapa yg dok baca blog ni (aku tau Daniel je yg dok baca. Haha, hi Daniel.), aku nak mintak maaf awal-awal macam semua orang. Silap-silap tak sempat pulak masa masuk Syawal nanti.
Okay, tu je. Selamat tinggal. x
Kepada siapa-siapa yg dok baca blog ni (aku tau Daniel je yg dok baca. Haha, hi Daniel.), aku nak mintak maaf awal-awal macam semua orang. Silap-silap tak sempat pulak masa masuk Syawal nanti.
Okay, tu je. Selamat tinggal. x
Monday, 22 August 2011
Berbuka at Sue's Place!
Sebenarnya event ni berlaku masa 19.8.2011, Jumaat.
Sue tinggal kat Pantai Dalam, area yg aku tak pernah jejak sampai la hari tu. So, transport kena harapkan Sue. Asalnya, nak tumpang abang dia - habis je skolah terus balik ke rumah dia. Tapi entah la, Mama tiba-tiba tak bagi. Mama kata, nanti pukul 3pm camtu dia hantar ke skolah then pergi dengan Sue. Meaning, Sue kena stayback.
Gilo apo nak stayback lama-lama? :B Sue pun pergi tumpang rumah Dibaa. *Sebenarnya orang panggil dia Mira. Tapi, tau la aku ni camne kan? (:
Then aku, macam biasa, siap lambat. (Sebenarnya aku siap awal, cuma Asyraf tu haa, balik dari masjid lambat. Ammar pulak berak. Ishh.) So, Sue suruh jumpa kat LRT Bangsar je. Abang dia takleh nak pick up pulak, jadi kitorang naik rapid :D
NI FIRST TIME AKU NAIK RAPID. COOL GILA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Mengikut cerita Sue and Dibaa, begini la aku:-
1. Masuk-masuk bas, kata 'Excited' berulang-ulang kali.
2. Diorang cakap apa-apa, aku tak dengar, sebab khusyuk sangat tengok luar tingkap.
3. Aku menggelabah sebab tak tau nak bayar macam mana.
4. Ticket bas tu aku pegang kuat-kuat, 'Kenangan'.
Sangat bermakna, okay! :B
Kitorang sampai rumah Sue at about 4pm. Naik-naik flat, salam mak dia, then lepak dalam bilik dia. Teratur gila kot! Kitorang tunggu dia mandi sampai around 4.30pm. Then, turun bawah and cari kuih.
Takde beli apa-apa pun, just kordial sirap.
Kemudian, kami bergerak ke tempat kediaman Anis Sakinah a/p Azman. *hohoho, jangan marah Anis <3
Rumah dia comel! :D Selepas itu, kitorang gerak gi bazaar and jumpa Alya and Syahirah.
Then beli stuff...................
Alaah, skip to the makan part! :D
Sebelum makan, me and Syahirah tukar baju. Pakai baju kurung pulak :
Lauk yg mak Sue buat:-
1. Ayam masak pedas
2. Udang gulai lemak
3. Ikan apa entah.. Sedap :D
Okay, tuje yg aku ingat sebab tuje lauk yg aku letak atas pinggan aku (:
Kuih:-
1. Kuih golf!
2. Wan tan.
Tak ingat dah.
Ayor, sirap soda tembikai laici. Bhahahah.
Oh oh, kitorang ada masak oreo goreng (y) yg hangit (n).
Then then, masa aku nak solat Maghrib, aku ter-distracted dengan diorang yg vain sebelah aku. So aku pun join la, dengan telekung sekali. *Astaghfirullahalazim.
Tengah syok-syok vain, tersedar gak la aku. 'Woi, pi sembahyang la. Vain tu bila-bila pun boleh. *Alhamdulillah.
Aku baru je nak baca niat, tiba-tiba bunyi azan Isyak! *Subhanallah / kan padan muka kau!
Terpaksa la aku solat qada'.
Then aku sambung vain dalam telekung. Bhahahaha.
Okay, itu sahaja. Terima kasih.
x
Sue tinggal kat Pantai Dalam, area yg aku tak pernah jejak sampai la hari tu. So, transport kena harapkan Sue. Asalnya, nak tumpang abang dia - habis je skolah terus balik ke rumah dia. Tapi entah la, Mama tiba-tiba tak bagi. Mama kata, nanti pukul 3pm camtu dia hantar ke skolah then pergi dengan Sue. Meaning, Sue kena stayback.
Gilo apo nak stayback lama-lama? :B Sue pun pergi tumpang rumah Dibaa. *Sebenarnya orang panggil dia Mira. Tapi, tau la aku ni camne kan? (:
Then aku, macam biasa, siap lambat. (Sebenarnya aku siap awal, cuma Asyraf tu haa, balik dari masjid lambat. Ammar pulak berak. Ishh.) So, Sue suruh jumpa kat LRT Bangsar je. Abang dia takleh nak pick up pulak, jadi kitorang naik rapid :D
NI FIRST TIME AKU NAIK RAPID. COOL GILA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Mengikut cerita Sue and Dibaa, begini la aku:-
1. Masuk-masuk bas, kata 'Excited' berulang-ulang kali.
2. Diorang cakap apa-apa, aku tak dengar, sebab khusyuk sangat tengok luar tingkap.
3. Aku menggelabah sebab tak tau nak bayar macam mana.
4. Ticket bas tu aku pegang kuat-kuat, 'Kenangan'.
Sangat bermakna, okay! :B
Kitorang sampai rumah Sue at about 4pm. Naik-naik flat, salam mak dia, then lepak dalam bilik dia. Teratur gila kot! Kitorang tunggu dia mandi sampai around 4.30pm. Then, turun bawah and cari kuih.
Takde beli apa-apa pun, just kordial sirap.
Kemudian, kami bergerak ke tempat kediaman Anis Sakinah a/p Azman. *hohoho, jangan marah Anis <3
Rumah dia comel! :D Selepas itu, kitorang gerak gi bazaar and jumpa Alya and Syahirah.
Then beli stuff...................
Alaah, skip to the makan part! :D
Sebelum makan, me and Syahirah tukar baju. Pakai baju kurung pulak :
Lauk yg mak Sue buat:-
1. Ayam masak pedas
2. Udang gulai lemak
3. Ikan apa entah.. Sedap :D
Okay, tuje yg aku ingat sebab tuje lauk yg aku letak atas pinggan aku (:
Kuih:-
1. Kuih golf!
2. Wan tan.
Tak ingat dah.
Ayor, sirap soda tembikai laici. Bhahahah.
Oh oh, kitorang ada masak oreo goreng (y) yg hangit (n).
Then then, masa aku nak solat Maghrib, aku ter-distracted dengan diorang yg vain sebelah aku. So aku pun join la, dengan telekung sekali. *Astaghfirullahalazim.
Tengah syok-syok vain, tersedar gak la aku. 'Woi, pi sembahyang la. Vain tu bila-bila pun boleh. *Alhamdulillah.
Aku baru je nak baca niat, tiba-tiba bunyi azan Isyak! *Subhanallah / kan padan muka kau!
Terpaksa la aku solat qada'.
Then aku sambung vain dalam telekung. Bhahahaha.
Okay, itu sahaja. Terima kasih.
x
Thursday, 18 August 2011
Bad dream ):
The title makes me sound like a sensitive mommy's kid. I guess you could say that.
My dream started with the whole family - Mama, Ayah, Asyraf, Adam, Johar, Ammar and I - along with my friend - lets call her 'Nur' - going shopping. We separated into two groups. I was with Nur, Ammar, and Adam.
We went to this shop - it looked sort of like a grocery store. I wanted to get something from the other side we were at, so I went alone. I took the item, and walked back to... I didn't walk back to where they were. I was sure I didn't miss a turn or whatever, but it seemed like I couldn't get anywhere.
I kept walking, crying at the same time. I tried to find an exit, at least, so I could call any of them - no line, I guess. I searched until I found and exit. I looked back, it was as if I just came out of a boutique.
I headed straight, keeping my head down. I didn't know where I was until I thought the lights got brighter, and I looked up - I was in MPH Bookstore. I was so relieved when I see Nur. She didn't look panicked or anything, she was starring at the magazine shelves. I called out to her, and her expression changed like, serta-merta.
"Apahal kau baru nak datang? Aku cari kau merata-rata k? Adam dengan Ammar dah menghilang ke mana entah. Sekarang, kau tolong aku cari diorang ye," she said, almost screaming. Then she stormed off, heading to the escalator, expecting me to hurry after her.
Her tracks stopped when I saw Adam just arriving at the escalator. She told me to hurry up and see something. I couldn't see anything, and being the curious me, I did a little jog over there. And then I saw it.
Red stuff all over the floor - blood. I was sure. A small kid lying on the floor, all curled up, looking pale and bruised. I felt a mini-heart attack.
Ammar was somehow beaten up.
Then to large round men - one wearing a green t-shirt, the other wearing a yellow one - got up and ran away. They were bleeding and bruised too.
I starred at Ammar, not knowing what to do. Then I said to myself, "Hospital lah, bodoh." So, I picked him up and .... Idk what happened next.
The next thing I remember is that -
Ammar was better. We were in a black jeep. It was night. No one was talking to me, like if I hadn't got lost, nothing would've happened to Ammar.
I had him in my arms. He was finally awake, and I asked him, "Ammar, apa jadi?"
He starred at me and answered, "Ammar tengah dengan kakak, Adam dengan kawan kakak kat kedai. Tiba-tiba, kakak hilang, pastu kawan kakak, pastu Adam. Ammar takut, Ammar pergi cari kakak. Ammar jerit 'Kakak! Kakak!' tapi kakak tak dengar. Ammar pusing-pusing tapi tak jumpa siapa-siapa. Pastu Ammar pergi kat tangga. Tiba-tiba ada orang sama besar dengan ayah datang. Dia tumbuk semua orang. Dia monster. Ammar nak panggil Ultraman tapi tak sempat. Dia pukul Ammar, kakak! Naughty. Pastu Ammar sakit kat semua-semua, Ammar takleh bangun. Pastu Ammar tidur, Ammar bangun kat tempat doktor."
I woke up.
He was sleeping next to me at the time. He was wearing the same clothes as he was in the dream, so I got up and checked if he was okay. He was.
I realized maybe this dream came because I got mad with Ammar cause he interrupted me watching tv and didn't want me to help to my specs away. 'He's only three, Kamila!'
Then, I heard azan maghrib. Buka puasa!
Asyraf and Johar were arguing about Char Kuey.
"Asyraf ni tamak lah! Takyah lah ambik semua!"
"Johar pun sama je! Asyraf baru ambik tiga, mana cukup?"
Blablabla.
It got on my nerves everytime they fought about food, but this was my first time snapping about it.
"Woi, shut up lah. Tau tak, you shouldn't be arguing about this? It's a small matter. At least dapat gak kan makan? Tak bersyukur langsung." Then I announced my dream.
"...Then Kamila check Ammar. He was okay. So that's something worth fighting about! Not food. Patutnya bersyukur, ada makanan and adik's okay. Ni tak, kalau boleh pasal curi 10 sen pun korang nak berperang, nak saman, nak gaduh sampai masuk court!"
I didn't realize I was crying until Mama said, "Dah, dah le tu. It was only a dream. Nangis depan makanan pun tak baik tau."
"Oh, yes. Tau tau. Tu je nak cakap."
After a short awkward silence, Ayah said, "Padan muka kena ceramah dengan Kamila."
My dream started with the whole family - Mama, Ayah, Asyraf, Adam, Johar, Ammar and I - along with my friend - lets call her 'Nur' - going shopping. We separated into two groups. I was with Nur, Ammar, and Adam.
We went to this shop - it looked sort of like a grocery store. I wanted to get something from the other side we were at, so I went alone. I took the item, and walked back to... I didn't walk back to where they were. I was sure I didn't miss a turn or whatever, but it seemed like I couldn't get anywhere.
I kept walking, crying at the same time. I tried to find an exit, at least, so I could call any of them - no line, I guess. I searched until I found and exit. I looked back, it was as if I just came out of a boutique.
I headed straight, keeping my head down. I didn't know where I was until I thought the lights got brighter, and I looked up - I was in MPH Bookstore. I was so relieved when I see Nur. She didn't look panicked or anything, she was starring at the magazine shelves. I called out to her, and her expression changed like, serta-merta.
"Apahal kau baru nak datang? Aku cari kau merata-rata k? Adam dengan Ammar dah menghilang ke mana entah. Sekarang, kau tolong aku cari diorang ye," she said, almost screaming. Then she stormed off, heading to the escalator, expecting me to hurry after her.
Her tracks stopped when I saw Adam just arriving at the escalator. She told me to hurry up and see something. I couldn't see anything, and being the curious me, I did a little jog over there. And then I saw it.
Red stuff all over the floor - blood. I was sure. A small kid lying on the floor, all curled up, looking pale and bruised. I felt a mini-heart attack.
Ammar was somehow beaten up.
Then to large round men - one wearing a green t-shirt, the other wearing a yellow one - got up and ran away. They were bleeding and bruised too.
I starred at Ammar, not knowing what to do. Then I said to myself, "Hospital lah, bodoh." So, I picked him up and .... Idk what happened next.
The next thing I remember is that -
Ammar was better. We were in a black jeep. It was night. No one was talking to me, like if I hadn't got lost, nothing would've happened to Ammar.
I had him in my arms. He was finally awake, and I asked him, "Ammar, apa jadi?"
He starred at me and answered, "Ammar tengah dengan kakak, Adam dengan kawan kakak kat kedai. Tiba-tiba, kakak hilang, pastu kawan kakak, pastu Adam. Ammar takut, Ammar pergi cari kakak. Ammar jerit 'Kakak! Kakak!' tapi kakak tak dengar. Ammar pusing-pusing tapi tak jumpa siapa-siapa. Pastu Ammar pergi kat tangga. Tiba-tiba ada orang sama besar dengan ayah datang. Dia tumbuk semua orang. Dia monster. Ammar nak panggil Ultraman tapi tak sempat. Dia pukul Ammar, kakak! Naughty. Pastu Ammar sakit kat semua-semua, Ammar takleh bangun. Pastu Ammar tidur, Ammar bangun kat tempat doktor."
I woke up.
He was sleeping next to me at the time. He was wearing the same clothes as he was in the dream, so I got up and checked if he was okay. He was.
I realized maybe this dream came because I got mad with Ammar cause he interrupted me watching tv and didn't want me to help to my specs away. 'He's only three, Kamila!'
Then, I heard azan maghrib. Buka puasa!
Asyraf and Johar were arguing about Char Kuey.
"Asyraf ni tamak lah! Takyah lah ambik semua!"
"Johar pun sama je! Asyraf baru ambik tiga, mana cukup?"
Blablabla.
It got on my nerves everytime they fought about food, but this was my first time snapping about it.
"Woi, shut up lah. Tau tak, you shouldn't be arguing about this? It's a small matter. At least dapat gak kan makan? Tak bersyukur langsung." Then I announced my dream.
"...Then Kamila check Ammar. He was okay. So that's something worth fighting about! Not food. Patutnya bersyukur, ada makanan and adik's okay. Ni tak, kalau boleh pasal curi 10 sen pun korang nak berperang, nak saman, nak gaduh sampai masuk court!"
I didn't realize I was crying until Mama said, "Dah, dah le tu. It was only a dream. Nangis depan makanan pun tak baik tau."
"Oh, yes. Tau tau. Tu je nak cakap."
After a short awkward silence, Ayah said, "Padan muka kena ceramah dengan Kamila."
Tuesday, 2 August 2011
Nur Lailati Aina.
Haa, ni la bestfriend aku yg aku pernah mention dalam beberapa post sebelum.
Dia baru hantar text kat aku;
"Memori tercipta :') rindu ko n aku bru sedar yg friendship kite mkin lme mkin jarak."
Nak ternangis aku baca! Tapi aku kena tahan, puasa bro.
Aku memang sayang dia. Aku bukan lesbo, tapi kalau tambah lagi 1% tu, memang lesbo la.
Kitorang start kawan biasa dari darjah enam. Kira, takde la lama sangat tempoh tu, baru nak masuk tahun ketiga kenal. Tapi serious, aku rasa macam dia dah part of diri aku. Tanpa dia, aku boleh rasa yg setengah diri aku tu takdak.
Dia selalu ada time aku susah. Tapi aku rasa aku banyak dosa dengan dia. Aku nak je mintak maaf setiap masa, tapi tak terkeluar. YaAllah, asal aku ni nak tahan macho sangat depan dia?
Kalau dia ada problem, aku sebenarnya cuba sedaya upaya aku gak. Aku cuba cari idea, aku cuba nak tenangkan dia. Aku sedar yg kalau aku ada dia akan gelak. Tak pernahnya dia nak menangis depan aku, unless aku nangis sama or tengah menguap.
Tapi baru-baru ni, kalau dia call menangis-nangis tengah malam, aku sendiri kaku. Aku harap dia tak salah paham. Aku sebenarnya tak sanggup tengok dia sakit. Kalau lepas dia hang-up tu, mata aku dah berkaca. Aku taknak hilang dia.
Kalau dia ugut taknak kawan aku - serious or not - aku dah menangis on the dot dah. Aku serious taknak hilang dia.
Tapi dia rasa macam aku tak sayang dia. Macam aku tak kesah pasal dia. Macam takde siapa kesah pasal dia. YaAllah, tolong la tunjuk kat dia yg aku memang takde niat nak buat dia rasa macam tu.
Sebab aku takde kredit ke nak balas text? Sebab phone rumah aku rosak ke? Haih.
So far, dah tiga, empat kali dia potong diri sendiri. Actually aku rasa agak bersalah meng-announce benda ni kat blog, but bukan ada orang baca pun. Kalau dia text aku contohnya, "Sorry, la. Aku sakitkan diri aku again :') serious kali ni takleh tahan. Ada banyak problem. Ko ingatkan aku boleh tahan ke? Hmm. Aku sayang ko. Aku sayang Shafiq. Aku sanggup sakitkan diri aku untuk korang :') hmm." Astaghfirullahalazim. Menangis aku. Kadang-kadang aku tak balas text camtu, 'kelu' jari. Aku bukannya nak perli dia, ye.
Ni first time aku nak mengaku yg memang friendship kitorang makin jarak. Segala-gala impian kitorang nak pergi ke Jepun untuk sambung college (sebab ada Ultraman dengan Doraemon) sama-sama dengan Shaz, Aiysha and Fara, kahwin pun madu empat orang, sorang jadi maid (boleh ke?) macam makin takleh je. Especially since aku pindah sekolah.
Aku bukannya tak cuba nak pulihkan balik hubungan. Aku still cerita everything kat dia. Aku jumpa dia setiap minggu. Aku try untuk fikir positive pasal friendship kitorang.
Nur Lailati Aina, aku sayang kau, okay?
Dia baru hantar text kat aku;
"Memori tercipta :') rindu ko n aku bru sedar yg friendship kite mkin lme mkin jarak."
Nak ternangis aku baca! Tapi aku kena tahan, puasa bro.
Aku memang sayang dia. Aku bukan lesbo, tapi kalau tambah lagi 1% tu, memang lesbo la.
Kitorang start kawan biasa dari darjah enam. Kira, takde la lama sangat tempoh tu, baru nak masuk tahun ketiga kenal. Tapi serious, aku rasa macam dia dah part of diri aku. Tanpa dia, aku boleh rasa yg setengah diri aku tu takdak.
Dia selalu ada time aku susah. Tapi aku rasa aku banyak dosa dengan dia. Aku nak je mintak maaf setiap masa, tapi tak terkeluar. YaAllah, asal aku ni nak tahan macho sangat depan dia?
Kalau dia ada problem, aku sebenarnya cuba sedaya upaya aku gak. Aku cuba cari idea, aku cuba nak tenangkan dia. Aku sedar yg kalau aku ada dia akan gelak. Tak pernahnya dia nak menangis depan aku, unless aku nangis sama or tengah menguap.
Tapi baru-baru ni, kalau dia call menangis-nangis tengah malam, aku sendiri kaku. Aku harap dia tak salah paham. Aku sebenarnya tak sanggup tengok dia sakit. Kalau lepas dia hang-up tu, mata aku dah berkaca. Aku taknak hilang dia.
Kalau dia ugut taknak kawan aku - serious or not - aku dah menangis on the dot dah. Aku serious taknak hilang dia.
Tapi dia rasa macam aku tak sayang dia. Macam aku tak kesah pasal dia. Macam takde siapa kesah pasal dia. YaAllah, tolong la tunjuk kat dia yg aku memang takde niat nak buat dia rasa macam tu.
Sebab aku takde kredit ke nak balas text? Sebab phone rumah aku rosak ke? Haih.
So far, dah tiga, empat kali dia potong diri sendiri. Actually aku rasa agak bersalah meng-announce benda ni kat blog, but bukan ada orang baca pun. Kalau dia text aku contohnya, "Sorry, la. Aku sakitkan diri aku again :') serious kali ni takleh tahan. Ada banyak problem. Ko ingatkan aku boleh tahan ke? Hmm. Aku sayang ko. Aku sayang Shafiq. Aku sanggup sakitkan diri aku untuk korang :') hmm." Astaghfirullahalazim. Menangis aku. Kadang-kadang aku tak balas text camtu, 'kelu' jari. Aku bukannya nak perli dia, ye.
Ni first time aku nak mengaku yg memang friendship kitorang makin jarak. Segala-gala impian kitorang nak pergi ke Jepun untuk sambung college (sebab ada Ultraman dengan Doraemon) sama-sama dengan Shaz, Aiysha and Fara, kahwin pun madu empat orang, sorang jadi maid (boleh ke?) macam makin takleh je. Especially since aku pindah sekolah.
Aku bukannya tak cuba nak pulihkan balik hubungan. Aku still cerita everything kat dia. Aku jumpa dia setiap minggu. Aku try untuk fikir positive pasal friendship kitorang.
Nur Lailati Aina, aku sayang kau, okay?
Majlis Maulidur Rasul 2011 at Masjid Ghufran.
From left to right: Me, Aina.
Honestly, I miss you too.
xx
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